Chapter 60 This emotion is called like, right?
The practice of the wind band began in late January and early February, with a one-hour morning practice at 6:30 every morning. After school in the afternoon, practice continued until 6:00, until the end of the third semester in mid-March.

The intensity of such training is particularly high when one is also taking care of academic studies.

Although everyone has a direction, they mostly complain before any results are achieved.

Only Xiaoyue is not like this.

Only Xiaoyue works particularly hard.

Matsumae Shinharu saw more than once that everyone had left, but Jiuhuayue was still playing the melody on the overpass of the club building.

She was curious, very curious - why was Xiaoyue working so hard because of Teacher Fujii?
This is like trying everything possible.
Although she really liked being with Teacher Fujii, she asked herself if she could do it.

At noon, Matsumae Shinchun was eavesdropping in a corner on the melody sung by Jiuhuayue on the overpass.

The fast-paced music exudes vigor and vitality. The first half is fine, but in the middle, the atmosphere starts to become disordered. The melody changes, the sound is delayed and dragged, the high notes cannot reach, and the bass does not change at all. It is completely messed up.

Jiuhuayue seemed to realize her mistake and started over again.

Start and fail.

Start and fail.

Start and fail.

So back and forth.

"Little Moon."

Matsumae Shinchun couldn't bear to watch it anymore, so she walked out and wanted to tell her the method.

Unexpectedly, Jiu Huayue put down her trumpet and frowned, "What are you doing here?"

"I heard the sound you played, Xiaoyue. Actually, there was a leak just now, so the sound was not clear."

"You came all the way here to laugh at me?"

"Of course not! That's not what I meant."

Matsumae Shinchun met her purple eyes and suddenly remembered her when she was a child. At that time, Xiaoyue always held her hand and ran with her in the entire Matsumae courtyard with a smile on her face.

That was the only light in her mind at that time.

"Xiaoyue, is there any misunderstanding between us?"

"There is no misunderstanding," Jiuhuayue sighed, "It's not your fault either. Please don't come to me like this for no reason, Songqian. I will only discuss matters related to the wind band with you. I just don't like you now."

Jiu Huayue obviously didn't want to say anything more to her. After seeing her here, she went straight down the stairs and returned to the music classroom.

"."

Matsumae Shinharu stood there in disbelief.

Am I not liked by Xiaoyue?

*
Jiuhuayue's words at noon made Matsumae Xinchun worry for the whole day, so much so that she was absent-minded in everything she did.

I was called out by the teacher several times for daydreaming in class.

The last history class in the afternoon ended, and the teacher happened to talk about the history of Hokkaido.

When talking about the history of Hokkaido, the Matsumae and Kuka families are topics that cannot be avoided.

It just so happened that there was a "Matsumae" and a "Kyuka" in the class.

Because Jiuhuayue has a rather aloof and cold personality, almost no classmates dare to ask her, but it is different for Matsumae Xinchun.

As soon as the get out of class was over, she was surrounded by curious female classmates and asked about "Matsumae" and "Kyuka".

And what is life like as Miss Matsumae?

"Matsumae-san, Matsumae-san, is what the teacher said true? Are the Matsumae family and the Kuka family really old friends?"

"Yes, we are old friends." Matsumae Shinchun smiled generously and answered reluctantly.

"Amazing!"

The female classmates exclaimed at the same time, their eyes full of stars, and they became even more curious.

Matsumae Shinchun could only force a smile to respond to everyone's passionate questions.

The way everyone surrounded her brought back her inner anxiety.

"Matsumae-san, the Matsumae family has a shrine maiden tradition at the Matsumae Shrine for generations, and the shrine maidens are always the daughters of the head of the family. Is that true?"

"Matsumae-san, are you a miko?"

"Matsumae-san, what does a shrine maiden usually do? Do they have to offer sacrifices to the gods every morning?"

"Matsumae-san, aren't the Matsumae family and the Kuka family old friends? Then why does it seem like you and Kuka-san don't have a good relationship?"

Matsumae Shinharu was already under a lot of pressure facing everyone, and the last question made her, who already had anxiety disorder, on the verge of collapse.

Matsumae and Kuka are old friends, why do you have such a bad relationship with them?

Matsumae and Jiuhua are old friends, why are you the only one who is disliked by Jiuhua?

Matsumae and Kuka are old friends, why are you the only one——

Just when she was about to give up.

Tuk Tuk.

knocking.

"Teacher Fujii is here"

Hiiragi Rinka whispered this from behind, and everyone suddenly quieted down and dispersed.

Fujii Itsuki stood at the door with a calm expression.

Matsumae Shinharu also looked over with everyone else. When the girl saw Teacher Fujii appear, her mood brightened up.

"Matsumae, come with me to the office."

"Okay! Okay."

Hearing what Teacher Fujii said, Matsumae Shinchun felt relieved and immediately stepped forward and followed him out of the classroom.

Walking upstairs to the office, the girl felt that the back of Mr. Fujii in front of her was also so special.

"Is everything okay?"

Matsumae Shinchun realized that this was the teacher's concern for her, so she clasped her hands in front of her and lowered her head slightly, "Well, thank you Mr. Fujii for helping me out."

"I just happened to be passing by and wanted to take a look at the classroom. I didn't expect to see the scene just now. Was Matsumae-san also so popular in the Saint Girl?"

"Well, whether in Jubei or Saint, everyone is very welcoming to me."

"It's your personality. Your politeness makes people feel comfortable, so you'll naturally be liked by everyone."

Liked by everyone.?

Having said that, Matsumae Shinchun couldn't feel any sense of reality from it.

What everyone seemed to care about and focus on was her identity as the eldest daughter of the Matsumae family.

Whenever people ask me about myself, it’s always about the Matsumae family.

After everyone knows her identity, the first impression is always that of the eldest daughter of the Matsumae family.

The only three people that Matsumae Shinharu can feel are her past mother, her past Satsuki, and her good friends in the Holy Maiden Wind Band.

It seems that they are the only ones who don't care about themselves as "Matsumae".

But her mother died, her classmates died, and Xiaoyue no longer liked herself.
"Does the teacher think so too?"

"of course."

Matsumae Shinchun lowered her head and looked at her hands which were clasped in front of her, feeling a little uneasy.

She didn't quite understand what this anxiety that was emerging in her hands was.

"Matsumae, are you still feeling a little uncomfortable?"

"."

Fujii Itsuki stopped, and Matsumae Shinharu followed suit.

The girl's pleated skirt swayed gently, and she looked up at the teacher.

"Matsumae?"

"Yes, teacher." The girl agreed softly.

Fujii Itsuki smiled, his eyes behind his half-frame glasses revealing the maturity and gentleness that only an adult man can have:
"Don't worry about bothering me. On the contrary, if Matsumae is upset but keeps it to himself, it will make the teacher feel uneasy."

Matsumae Xinchun's eyes trembled, and she was a little afraid to look at him. She just lowered her head to avoid his gaze and nodded slightly, "Yeah, I still feel a little uncomfortable."

"Did you bring your medicine?"

"In the classroom."

"In the classroom. It's a bit far to walk back now. I remember there are alprazolam tablets in the school clinic. I'll go get some for you."

".Teacher Fujii knows what medicine I'm taking?"

"As the person in charge, I naturally need to understand." Seeing that she was uneasy, Fujii Itsuki added, "Besides, you, Matsumae, are also a friend to me, and a 'confidant' with the same interests as me. Isn't that right?"

Matsumae Shinchun murmured the word "confidant" in her heart.

She knew that the teacher said this to her because of her mother and her mother's novels.

She whispered with a heavy heart:
"Well, every time I talk to the teacher about my mother's novels, I feel very happy."

Fujii Itsuki saw that she was in a bad mood and seemed to have some misunderstanding, so he asked:

"Are you worried about something? Why not just say it."

"."

"Matsumae," Fujii Itsuki reminded, "Do you remember what we said when you ran away when you saw me that day?"

".!"

Matsumae Shinharu recalled with shame, "I said that the teacher was a trustworthy person."

"Yes, I trust Songqian, and Songqian also trusts me. Not only is the relationship between teacher and student, but we are also friends who have known each other for many days. Shouldn't we trust each other and talk about problems when there are any?"

Matsumae Shinharu felt even more ashamed, because just now Teacher Fujii came over to help her out, and she was very grateful to the teacher.

How could you misunderstand the teacher just because of the word "of course"?

Matsumae Shinchun remained silent for a long time, but finally mustered up the courage to speak out her innermost thoughts:
"Teacher Fujii, I just want to know, when the teacher said I was a 'confidant', was it because of my mother or because of me?"

It turned out to be the case.

Fujii Itsuki wondered what the girl's troubles were.

He studied psychology in college because of the demands of his teaching career, and he knew that Matsumae had a deviation in his self-perception.

The most striking feature of self-perception is uncertainty about one's own status.

This is quite obvious.

Sure enough, being honest with each other is the best way to solve the problem.

He liked the little snow fox a little more because of the girl's bold honesty and seriousness.

"Matsumae, doesn't your father care about you too?"

Matsumae Shinchun lowered her head even deeper, "I haven't seen my father for more than two months."

"."

Fujii Itsuki sighed in his heart.

"Matsumae wants to hear the truth from me?"

"Ah."

"I know you have some doubts that I treat you so well because of your mother, but actually now, I care more about you, Matsumae."

"Why did the teacher say that?" The girl looked up in surprise.

"Because I have been communicating with you all this time, right? Whether it's my mother or the novel, they are the bridge between us, not the object. Obviously, I am very happy to chat with you because I can find a sense of identity and the joy of sharing in you."

"What does it feel like?" the girl asked.

Fujii Itsuki knew that she needed to be cared for, and continued to affirm her emotions, "It makes me very happy to get your reply. I like every reply you give me as a close friend."

"Teacher Fujii" Matsumae Shinharu is shy.

Fujii Itsuki was afraid that she might misunderstand him, so he added, "Of course, it's the love for a good friend."

"Yeah." Matsumae Shinchun nodded quickly, but still blushed a little, "I understand."

When Matsumae Shinchun lowered her head, she suddenly saw the little snow fox amulet that she had given to Fujii Shu still hanging on the keychain around his waist.

Teacher, is he still wearing it?
"In fact, I am looking forward to you taking the initiative to chat with me on Line, because every time you can share something that I am interested in. It feels very good to speak the truth without being a teacher. If you say it this way, do you understand my true opinion of you?"

So this is what Mr. Fujii thought.

It's comfortable to talk to myself. So compared to your mother, Mr. Fujii actually cares more about yourself now?
Matsumae Shinchun felt much more at ease.

"I understand. Thank you, Mr. Fujii."

"Then please answer this yourself. Besides the teacher-student and friend relationship, what is the deeper level of our relationship now?"

Matsumae Shinchun met his gaze, hesitated for a moment, and suddenly said, "He is a confidant, a friend!"

Fujii Itsuki smiled: "Yes, Matsumae is very important to me. He is not only a friend, but also a confidant. Let me ask you again, do you understand Matsumae?"

"Yeah, I got it."

Mr. Fujii
The girl looked at his face and repeated the name in her heart.

Matsumae Shinchun seemed to understand.

I understand why Xiaoyue works so hard.

Why did she try so hard to become the teacher's 'student'.

Xiaoyue must be chasing this kind of feeling, right?
Be recognized and acknowledged by the teacher.

It was at this moment that Matsumae Shinharu realized the value of herself by her teacher's side.

Matsumae Shinchun couldn't help but think of her own situation.

The Matsumae family is a very large family, and the father often does not come home because he works outside.

As the eldest daughter of the Matsumae family and a shrine maiden of the Matsumae Shrine, she can only wander around the empty Matsumae courtyard forever.

She rarely gets close to others on a daily basis, and because of the death of her mother and her best friend, she has always felt a lack of existence.

For many years, I have been feeling anxious.

Until——the teacher appeared.

The teacher brought news about my mother, and through the teacher I found someone who also loved my mother's novels.

I can find some of my mother's past shadow in him, and I can also feel some care that only elders can have.

The teacher is like both my mother and my father.

The loneliness that had been vacant in my heart for many years was filled because of the teacher's words of affirmation.

"I really hope to get praise from Mr. Fujii."

Mr. Fujii
Mr. Fujii
Mr. Fujii
Just repeating my respect for him in my heart can calm my anxiety. I am praised, patted on the head, and even given a warm hug.

Matsumae Shinchun felt that she shouldn't think about it any further. She more or less felt that she lacked some love and care from her elders.

But I'm still a little unsure about what kind of feelings I have towards Mr. Fujii.

Seeing that Matsumae Shinharu had calmed down, Fujii Itsuki also breathed a sigh of relief.

The students he came into contact with seemed to have certain psychological problems.

Kuka is, Rinka is, and Chitose is even more so.

"Matsumae, go to the office and wait for me. I'll come find you after I get the medicine."

"Good teacher."

Matsumae Shinharu looked at Fujii Itsuki's back as it disappeared at the end of the corridor, and she suddenly felt a little reluctant.

It was completely different from when I first met Mr. Fujii.

What kind of mood is this?

*
Half an hour ago.

The screen in Class B's classroom was playing a movie chosen by the students themselves, and everyone was watching it attentively.

The same goes for Chitose Yang Kui, but she prefers attending Brother Shu's class to watching movies.

Anyway, every time Brother Shu needs to answer a question, I will be the first to raise my hand.

There’s no reason, just because it’s Brother Shu’s class.

But now everyone is using it to watch movies. For everyone, this is a reward, but for me, it must be a punishment.

She thought of a way to drive Akai away yesterday, but this method requires Brother Shu's cell phone, and she doesn't have a good opportunity to implement it now.

Yang Kui Chitose held up her face with a bored look, thinking about all sorts of things, until someone patted her shoulder.

The girl turned around and saw that it was Fujii Itsuki.

Chitose Yang Aoi immediately smiled, "Teacher Fujii"

These slightly teasing words seemed to make Fujii Shu feel helpless. After sighing, he lowered his voice and said, "Come on, follow me to get your homework."

"it is good!"

The two walked down the corridor.

Yang Kui Chitose turned her head and looked at Fujii Itsuki. She couldn't help but call him "Brother Shu".

Fujii Itsuki sighed, "You have to call me Fujii-sensei at school!"

"But there's no one else in the corridor now!"

"You have to call even if you don't have one. That's the rule."

Yang Kui Chitose couldn't refute her brother Shu, so she lowered her head and said, "Okay."

"Are you sad?" Fujii glanced at her.

"No~" Yang Kui Chitose looked up and smiled with her hands behind her back.

Fujii Itsuki smiled with relief, "Still so naughty."

"Teacher Fujii, it is illegal to smile at a student of the opposite sex like this. Be careful or you will be expelled."

“If you could be fired for smiling at a student, there would be no teachers in this world.”

"Who said Mr. Fujii is so handsome~"

"I think he is handsome only in your eyes, Chitose."

While Yang Kui Chitose was answering Fujii Itsuki, some thoughts were already forming in her mind.

"That. Mr. Fujii!"

"Just tell me if you have anything to say."

"Can you give me Mr. Fujii's cell phone?"

"Take it."

".?"

Yang Kui Chitose took it in surprise, "Teacher Fujii didn't even ask me what I wanted to do? And isn't Brother Shu afraid that I will peek into Teacher Fujii's privacy?"

"I'm too lazy to ask. Besides, if everyone in the world is curious about my privacy and wants to click on it, I know that my sister is the only one in the world who won't choose to click on it." Fujii Itsuki said with a smile.

When Yang Kui Chitose heard this, she froze for a moment, "Why?"

"Because I didn't agree."

"Why does Mr. Fujii think she won't click it?"

"Because my sister's feelings for me are pure and spotless."

immaculate
The girl murmured in her mind.

Chitose Yang Kui lowered her head and looked at the phone in Fujii Itsuki's hand, and suddenly became absent-minded.

When I walked into the office, the teachers had all gone to class and there was no one inside.

Fujii Itsuki finished packing up the homework of Class B and was about to hand it over to his sister, but he found that Chitose Yangkui was operating two mobile phones at the same time.

"So what exactly did Yang Kui-san ask me to do when I took your phone?"

"Hey, didn't Mr. Fujii say he was too lazy to ask?"

“Just because I’m too lazy to ask doesn’t mean I’m not curious.”

Yang Kui Chitose did not hide it and directly raised his cell phone to show him.

Fujii Itsuki squinted his eyes and saw on the phone screen a text message chat between "Yang Aoi Chitose" and "Fujii Itsuki".

The content of the chat was mostly ambiguous conversations between young lovers.

Then there are things like "getting married".

When Fujii Itsuki saw this, he frowned and slapped her on the head.

"pain"

"You still feel the pain? Are you still joking about that day? Do you like role-playing?"

"Because, because! I really want to get married with Brother Shu—"

"Ok?"

"Okay, Mr. Fujii, I was wrong. I won't make this joke anymore."

Fujii Itsuki handed a large stack of homework to Yang Kui Chitose, "If you know you made a mistake, take the homework back to your class. I will go to my A class to check it out later."

"no problem!"

Chitose Yangkui hugged a pile of homework as if it were a ball of cotton and ran away.

It took Fujii Itsuki a few seconds to realize that his phone was still with Chitose, but there was no trace of Chitose anywhere.
Well, Qiansui won’t rummage around anyway. When she realizes that the phone is still on her, she will take the initiative to return it to her.

Chitose Yangkui brought the homework back to the classroom, and before the get out of class was over, she made an excuse to go to the bathroom, picked up Fujii Itsuki's phone, and immediately rushed to the office.

Whether or not he can use Xinchun's identity to drive Akai Muzi away depends on this one move.

But she suddenly hesitated.

Is this really good?

Chitose Yang Kui began to doubt what she was about to do.

But time was running out and she had no time to hesitate.

She changed the text message memo name of "Chitose" to "Kokoharu", walked into the office, put her phone on Fujii Itsuki's work desk, and secretly waited outside for Akai Muko to arrive.

She needed to make sure the text messages wouldn't be seen by anyone else.

As soon as Chitose Yangkui left, Muzi Akai arrived outside the faculty office.

As expected, Akai doesn't like to stay in class after class, and she always leaves five minutes early, so she is the first teacher to return to the office.

Chitose Hinano picked up her phone and got ready.

But she suddenly hesitated again.

She remembered that Brother Shu had just praised her for her pure feelings.
Chitose Yang Kui was in a dilemma, her thumb hanging in the air over the green send button, trembling for a long time.

This isn't the right thing to do, is it?
If I use such a small trick to involve others, can my love for Brother Tree still be called "pure and flawless"?

But if I don't do that, what if Akai wants to confess to Brother Tree again?
What if Brother Shu agreed to her promise?
Do you want to give up?
No. The jealousy and possessiveness in her heart made it impossible for her to ignore this.

She must do everything she can to drive away any possible threats.

She placed her hand on the green send button, her fingers almost touching the phone screen.

Now, just release it, the message will be sent, and Akai will be able to see the chat.

But what Fujii Itsuki had just said to her, "pure and flawless," seemed to occupy her entire mind.

My feelings for Brother Shu are pure and innocent.

My feelings for Brother Shu are pure and innocent.

My feelings for Brother Shu are pure and innocent!
The girl kept repeating it in her mind.

So no matter how much you hate that woman Akai, you can't use such a small trick against her.

Because this would tarnish my feelings for Brother Shu.

Chitose Yang Kui placed her hand on the screen and hesitated for a long time.

In the end, she still couldn't choose to press it.

But now that I have this thought, does it mean that my feelings for Brother Shu are no longer pure?

The ancient bell of the Moon Tower, symbolizing the end of school time, suddenly rang at this moment. When Yang Kui Chitose came to her senses, her already trembling fingers touched the screen and the message was sent.

Done!

Yang Kui Chitose's heart suddenly became anxious.

*
Faculty and staff office.

Akai Muzi had just finished correcting English homework. She stretched, picked up the thermos, and stood up to get some hot water.

"Ok?"

But just as she stood up, she discovered that Fujii Itsuki's cell phone was still on the desk next to her.

It's weird. Fujii went to patrol the class without even bringing his cell phone?
The phone's screen lit up as if it had received some message.

Akai Muzi was just about to take a look, but at this moment, Yang Kui Chitose suddenly walked in and took the phone away.

"Teacher Akai." She greeted.

Seeing her anxious look, Akai Muzi asked, "Is it Yang Kui-san, here to help Fujii get his phone?"

Yang Kui Chitose held the phone with both hands and smiled faintly: "Yes, Mr. Akai, Mr. Fujii asked me to help him hold the phone."

"Oh, then you take it." Akai noticed her hand tightly holding the phone and realized something.

"Then Mr. Akai, I will take my leave now."

"Well, let's go."

Yang Kui Chitose immediately turned around and left the office.

Akai Muzi stared at her back until she disappeared, and clenched her chin.

If I'm not mistaken, what was on the notification bar just now was a text message. The note on the text message was "Matsumae Shinchun", the child in Class A.

The text message was sent by Matsumae Shinharu, but it was received anxiously by Chitose.
There's something weird about it.

After thinking for half a minute, another child walked into the office.

It happened to be Matsumae Shinharu.

"excuse me."

Matsumae Shinchun came to Fujii Itsuki's desk and bowed to Akai Muko at the same time, "Akai teacher."

"You are Matsumae Shinharu, right?"

"Yes."

"Um"

"Akai-sensei?"

"Do you like Mr. Fujii?"

Matsumae Shinchun was startled, "Teacher Akai! Please don't make such a joke."

"That's not right. Didn't you send any text messages to Fujii just now?"

"Short message.?"

Without knowing it.

Akai Muzi thought about it again and thought that the text message just now was not sent by Matsumae.

"When you came here just now, did you meet Chitose?"

"Yes, but she looked a little anxious and a little lost. She didn't notice me when she passed by."

So--

Yeah. Well, that’s about it.

Akai Muzi seemed to understand why Fujii's phone was still on the desk at this time.

Akai Muzi smiled and said, "No, it's nothing, don't worry about it, Matsumae-san."

Mr. Akai left the office.

Matsumae Shinchun didn't dwell on the weirdness of what happened for too long.

She was just particularly concerned about what Akai Muzi had just said.

"Like, Mr. Fujii?"

The girl quickly pressed her right hand with the red bracelet on her heart, which was beating faster.

Matsumae Shinchun didn't dare to think any further.

That is disrespectful to Mr. Fujii.

But she seemed to dislike this kind of restraint.

It seems that I have a vague desire to break free from this restraint.
Matsumae Shinharu calmed down again.

She seemed to know what it felt like just now, feeling a little anxious, and then feeling vaguely relieved and happy when seeing Teacher Fujii.

This emotion is called love, right?

Matsumae Shinharu took shallow breaths and calmed down again.

(End of this chapter)