Chapter 3: Girl in the Snow

Is this suicide?

Fujii Itsuki hesitated for two seconds.

That's it
Seeing her eyes that were empty and facing the wind and snow, Fujii Itsuki suddenly felt a sense of sympathy with her.

fine.
He chose to look away and pretend he saw nothing.

He even raised his head and looked at the snowflakes falling from the sky.

he thinks.

If it were my old self, I would have chosen to stop her without a doubt, right?
I will tell her that there are many wonderful things in this world, and that as long as she is willing to struggle and work hard, she will eventually be able to overcome difficulties and achieve success.

But what about the facts?

He can't do it himself.

There was a student in the school who was trying to commit suicide by cutting his wrists with a utility knife because his family neglected to care for him. After his parents learned about what happened to their child at school, they called and scolded him, asking if he, as the person in charge, really knew anything about education!

I scolded myself for two hours.

Fujii Itsuki knew that the parent couldn't find anyone to shift the blame to, so he chose to call him.

But as a teacher, he couldn't refute at all. Every time a parent scolded him, he had to bend down and nod into the phone, repeating "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" over and over again.

When he was under the most pressure, he would return to his empty rental house at night, eat the instant noodles he made for himself, and stare blankly at the lovers’ reunion on TV with laughter and joy. He could not find any sense of his own existence in this world.

This girl is so beautiful, and she chose to come here at this age, and to stand on such a basically empty platform. She must have experienced pressure that others could hardly imagine.

Outsiders and police officers might advise her that the past events and past stress are over and no need to think about them.
But who can understand the situation and emotions of the parties involved?
People can never understand each other.

It’s like some children are forced by their parents and threaten to jump off the building, but the parents still do as they please, thinking that their children don’t have the courage to do so.

As a result, the child opened the window and jumped down from the 20th floor, causing his parents to cry and regret.
Fujii Itsuki closed his eyes and let the coldness of the snowflakes soak into his face.

He waited for the tram to whiz by from right to left, honking its horn.

The train from the Snow Country still slowly stopped in front of the platform and opened the empty doors as usual.

There was no special sound.

He turned his head and found that the girl was still standing in the same position, but closer to the edge of the platform.

Another girl who has not made up her mind.

Fujii Itsuki sighed inwardly, helplessly, and slowly walked to her side, pulling his suitcase. They stood in front of the open carriage of the train, one taller than the other.

Time froze for a moment, with only the sound of wind and snow.

"Aren't you going up?" Fujii Itsuki said to the empty carriage in front.

The sound of "not going up" is crisp and clean, like snow.

"Where are your parents?"

"at home."

"So what are you doing here?"

"Suicide"

"Commit suicide. Why do you want to commit suicide? Is this world not friendly enough for you?"

After hearing this, the girl seemed to sense that someone had suddenly appeared beside her and reacted.

She turned her head to look at Fujii Itsuki's plain face, subconsciously took two steps away, frowned and asked:
".Who are you?"

The train slowly moved away.

The wind and snow occupied the view again.

"To be honest, I understand your desire to commit suicide. I have had this thought myself."

Fujii Itsuki said to the girl, "As a fellow traveler, I have a suggestion for you. You just happened to want to commit suicide, and I'm also extremely disappointed with this society. I just lost my job. How about we commit suicide together? It's a good opportunity for us to be companions."

Seeing that he was trying to pull her arm, the girl took two steps away, with a vigilant expression, "Weirdo"

"He is indeed a weirdo," Fujii Itsuki retracted his hand, pulled the suitcase in front of him, crossed his hands to support the handle, and smiled, "He clearly wanted to commit suicide but didn't jump when the train came. His body and mind are completely out of sync. Don't you think he is a weirdo?"

".none of your business."

"Because of your actions just now, you delayed my time to get on the train, and that was the last train."

".And then? So what? Didn't you choose to come up and talk to me?"

"That's true, but if you weren't here, I would have gotten in the car directly."

"What do you mean?" "That is to say, you must be responsible for me."

".what are you saying?"

"Didn't you understand? Be responsible for me." Fujii Itsuki smiled with his teeth showing.

"You should know when to stop joking, right? Be careful or I'll call the police." The girl was so scared that she took two steps back.

Fujii Itsuki acted indifferent and even stretched out his right hand to make a "please" gesture.

"random."

"."

"Why, you don't want to call the police? Do you need my help? Or did you run away without telling your parents and you don't dare to call the police."

"."

The girl began to get scared and took a few steps back.

"Why are you so far away? I'm not going to eat you."

"Don't come over." The girl became more alert, her expression tense and a little fearful, which made her look uniquely cute.

"You are so young and beautiful, why would you commit suicide? It's such a pity. How about this, why don't you come with me now? I will take you to experience the beauty of the world. You should like these at your age."

".what you up to?"

"Don't get me wrong, I still have some spare money, and I want to buy you something delicious and fun. If you are full, tired and happy, then I will be happy too."

Fujii Itsuki smiled faintly and tried to get closer while talking.

"Don't be afraid. When you get sleepy, I'll help you get a luxury suite in a hotel. How about that? Do you feel warmed up instantly? Of course, my money is limited. I can only get one luxury suite. I'm afraid I'll have to sleep with you at night. Do you mind?"

".Don't come over here." The girl faced Fujii Itsuki's smiling face, missed a step and stumbled.

"Girl, be careful. It would be bad if you broke your face."

".do not come!"

"Don't be afraid, I'm a good person."

The fear on the girl's face has reached an extreme level.

The moment she retreated to the stairs, she immediately turned around, ran down the stairs quickly, and left the platform looking back every few steps.

The slender figure quickly disappeared from sight.

"Hey! You're not going to commit suicide? Don't walk around alone in the dark! It's dangerous! At least -! Spend the night with me first!"

Unfortunately there was no response.

"Leaving now?"

Fujii Itsuki withdrew his gaze and shook his head.

I didn't want to meddle in other people's business, but she seemed hesitant.

Since she hesitated, it meant that she still had concerns and imaginations about this world in her heart.

This was exactly what prevented her from jumping immediately.

For someone who wants to commit suicide, it is not only troublesome for him, a stranger, to dissuade him, but also has little effect.

The fact that my words could scare her and that she was wary of me from the beginning showed that she still cared about her body and was not in a desperate state.

There are policemen in the small booth outside the station, and they are patrolling at this time of day. If I scare her, she should know who to find.

Even though Fujii Itsuki himself didn't like his past identity as a teacher, after all, he had been a teacher.

Well, that must be the reason why I chose to go up and talk to him.

It must be so.

Just in case, Fujii Itsuki took out his cell phone, called the police and reported what had happened.

Only after the police had collected all the information did Fujii Itsuki put away his phone, looked up at the gray world again through the empty railway and the telephone poles on the platform.

Come to think of it, when I scared her just now, she looked quite cute when she was frightened.

What a mess of ideas.

Fujii Itsuki shook his head, took out the last cigarette from his trouser pocket, then turned around, picked up his suitcase and left the platform.

(End of this chapter)