Chapter 85 Suddenly like a dream
After washing up, Xu Hongdou was doing simple bedtime care while Chen Nanxing was lying comfortably on the bed.

"Hey, does what you did yesterday count as a formal meeting with your in-laws?" Chen Nanxing asked with interest.

Xu Hongdou shook her head helplessly, "What the hell is going on? I'm just meeting my parents-in-law."

"That's Chen Mo's mother's birthday. As a younger generation, I am going to wish the elder a happy birthday."

"Daughter-in-law is also a junior." Chen Nanxing joked.

Xu Hongdou glanced at Chen Nanxing helplessly and ignored him.

Chen Nanxing leaned over, looked at her carefully and said, "Hey, your skin seems to be getting better recently."

"Really?" Xu Hongdou also looked at herself in the mirror and her complexion seemed to be better.

"It seems that love is nourishing." Chen Nanxing joked.

Xu Hongdou thought about it, nodded, and a smile appeared on her lips.

"You actually admitted it?" Chen Nanxing widened his eyes.

Xu Hongdou shrugged, "I have nothing to be ashamed of admitting."

"If you are in a good mood and have a regular work and rest schedule, your body will naturally be healthy."

"When you're in a relationship and looking for a partner, isn't it because you think that two people will be better off than one person?"

"If two people become bitter and emotionally drained after being together, then what's the point of being in a relationship?"

"Although what you said makes sense, I don't think it's just the other reason." Chen Nanxing shook his head.

"Then what's the reason?" Xu Hongdou asked curiously.

"Like physically..."

"Are you going to die? I told you it's over..." Xu Hongdou pressed the pillow on Chen Nanxing.

"Why are you so angry? It's because I was right," Chen Nanxing laughed.

"You're the one who always says that."

The two of them had a fight.

"Ouch~~" Chen Nanxing waved his hands.

"What's wrong? Is your waist still hurting?" Xu Hongdou stopped immediately.

"Well, still a little." Chen Nanxing hit his waist with his fist.

"Let's make an appointment tomorrow and have a look." Xu Hongdou looked at Chen Nanxing with some concern.

Chen Nanxing said nonchalantly, "Oh, it's nothing. I just went on a business trip last week and had a lot to do this week, so I didn't get enough rest."

"Since we're already there, let's take a look together. It's just right for me to accompany you." Xu Hongdou said seriously.

Chen Nanxing looked at Xu Hongdou with some worry and smiled, "Okay, I'll listen to you."

Xu Hongdou felt relieved after hearing that. "Then turn off the lights. Get up early tomorrow."

"it is good."

They turned off the lights and went to bed.

"Please help me rub my waist." Chen Nanxing said while lying down.

"Here?" Xu Hongdou reached out and pressed it.

"Yes, comfortable~~" Chen Nanxing let out a long breath.

Xu Hongdou smiled and lay on her side to massage Chen Nanxing's waist.

"By the way, when are you going to accompany me to Yunnan?" Chen Nanxing asked.

"This."

"Forget about that. Let's find a time this year, take our annual leave, and go together."

"It may not be possible this year. I will be promoted to deputy director of the housekeeping department next quarter. I will be busy for a while." Xu Hongdou looked apologetic.

"Look at you. It was you who told me you were going at the beginning, and now it's you who says you're not free." Chen Nanxing looked resentful.

"Next year, next year I will definitely accompany you." Xu Hongdou promised.

Chen Nanxing didn't believe it. "You've stood me up for three years. You're a woman without credibility."

Xu Hongdou flattered: "It's your birthday this year, I'll buy you a present, I got a raise."

"Really?" Chen Nanxing raised his eyebrows.

"Of course, just tell me what you want." Xu Hongdou said affirmatively.

Chen Nanxing smiled shyly, "Then I want to pack it."

"No problem." Xu Hongdou agreed immediately.

"Oh, Hongdou, you are such a generous woman." Chen Nanxing changed his tone.

"Are you not going to say that I have no credibility?" Xu Hongdou said with a smile.

Chen Nanxing smiled sheepishly, "Hehe~~It's just because the bag is too charming."

"Go to sleep."

"Ah."

The night gradually became quiet, the moon hid deep in the clouds, the starlight became dim, and in the darkness, time seemed to be particularly long.
In the morning, the sky was gray and the world seemed to be missing a layer of color.

"It's cloudy." Xu Hongdou looked out the window. For some reason, she felt inexplicably listless.

"It's okay as long as it doesn't rain." Chen Nanxing finished washing up and walked out of the bathroom.

"I have a car to pick you up and drop you off, so you don't have to worry about the rain." Chen Mo also came over from next door early in the morning and waited.

Xu Hongdou smiled and nodded, "Yeah, let's go then."

"Well, finish the examination earlier so you can eat earlier." Chen Mo stood up.

"Thank you for getting up so early." Chen Nanxing said.

"I'm hoping to surpass you one day earlier and become Hongdou's lifelong love." Chen Mo said with a smile.

"Huh? Surpass me?" Chen Nanxing puzzled.

Chen Mo nodded, "Yes, Hongdou said that you are the love of her life, and I am now behind you."

Chen Nanxing glanced at Xu Hongdou and couldn't help but smile: "Then I have to hold on to this position firmly. You want to replace me? Dream on!"

"Let's wait and see." Chen Mo raised his eyebrows.

"I won't give up my position easily. I will defend my position to the death." Chen Nanxing waved his little fist.

Chen Mo's eyes narrowed, "Then we'll decide who's better, and who lives and dies."

Looking at the two of them, Xu Hongdou felt helpless. "You two are so energetic this early in the morning."

"Oh, you haven't woken up yet?" Chen Nanxing said with a smile.

"Maybe. I don't know why, but I feel a little unmotivated." Xu Hongdou shook her head.
"He must be hungry. After all, he has been hungry since early last night." Chen Mo said.

"Then let's go." Chen Nanxing quickly put on her shoes and took her bag.

"Well, let's go."

The sky was covered with dark clouds, lightning flashed from time to time, and rain began to fall.

"The size of the pancreatic head shown in this film looks a bit problematic."

"Let's go to the surgery department and do a CT scan."

"Are there any family members coming with you?"

"Don't waste any more time."

You never know which will come first, tomorrow or an accident.

It seemed as if God had prepared the sky for this dramatic scene early in the morning.

As soon as Jiang Congwen learned the news, he rushed to the hospital.

Chen Mo, Xu Hongdou and Jiang Congwen stayed with Chen Nanxing until Chen Nanxing's parents arrived from their hometown.

The moment he saw his parents, Chen Nanxing, who had been pretending to be strong, finally couldn't hold it in anymore, and the whole family burst into tears.

Seeing this scene, Xu Hongdou's eyes, which had already turned red from crying, could not hold back her tears. Chen Mo gently comforted her, feeling a strange feeling in his heart.

They are still very young, and the word "death" should be far away from them.

In the next few days, more people came to visit, including good colleagues, familiar classmates, and some relatives and old friends, as if they were saying their final goodbyes.

After the first few days, the ward gradually returned to calm.

Apart from Chen Nanxing's parents who were always with Chen Nanxing, only Chen Mo, Xu Hongdou and Jiang Congwen came over every one or two days.

The three of them agreed that they would come over when they were free, and if someone couldn't leave, they would take turns to come, to ensure that there was someone to talk to Chen Nanxing every day.

After all, the world will not stop turning because of someone, and other people's lives and work continue. "Why did you come here alone today?"

Chen Nanxing only saw Chen Mo and was a little surprised not to see Xu Hongdou.

Because Chen Mo knew that Xu Hongdou must be the saddest person besides Chen Nanxing's parents.

So Chen Mo is worried about Xu Hongdou's condition, and he will definitely accompany Xu Hongdou if she comes.

Chen Nanxing also knows this.

"Didn't you say you wanted to eat meat dragon?" Chen Mo raised the bag in his hand.

"She had something to do at the Red Bean Hotel and won't be here until later. She was afraid that you would get anxious waiting, so she asked me to bring it to you first."

"Hey, I just casually told Hongdou to bring some when she comes over when she's free. She doesn't have to send it to me specially."

"If I have something to do today, I'll do it tomorrow. If I don't have time tomorrow, I'll do it the day after tomorrow. Anyway, I won't die for a while." Chen Nanxing smiled open-mindedly.

"Don't be so cynical all the time. Hongdou will start to cry again after hearing you say that."

Chen Mo sat down, opened the meat dragon he brought, and handed Chen Nanxing a disposable glove, "Try it while it's hot."

"Thank you." Chen Nanxing took it with a smile, "I feel relieved to have you by Hongdou's side."

"I will give up my position as the 'love of my life' and let you take over."

"No, I only want what I fought for. I don't want what you give me as a gift." Chen Mo waved his hand.

Chen Nanxing picked up the meat dragon, took a bite, and said vaguely: "Okay, then you wait a little longer, that position will be vacant soon."

"Don't be in a hurry to give it up." Chen Mo said softly.

"I heard from Hongdou that you two have agreed to be each other's bridesmaids. Just stay in this position until we get married. I won't compete with you for it."

Chen Nanxing sighed softly: "That might be a bit difficult. I might have to break my promise."

Chen Mo was speechless for a moment. Any words of comfort would be pale in the face of the countdown of life.

"What are you two talking about?" At this time Xu Hongdou walked in.

"Why are you so fast?" Chen Mo turned his head.

"The problem was resolved ahead of time, so I rushed here." Xu Hongdou said.

"I also told Chen Mo that if you have something to do, you don't have to come here every day. I don't have anything to do here either." Chen Nanxing said with a smile.

"It's okay for me to go back. I can kill time by chatting with you."

Chen Mo gave his seat to Xu Hongdou, who came to sit beside the bed, "By the way, where are uncle and auntie?"

"I asked them to go out for a walk and get some fresh air. After all, they are so tired of accompanying me here every day."

"But I guess they will come over after they go back and take a shower." Chen Nanxing smiled and shook his head.

"By the way, I haven't thanked you, Chen Mo, for helping my parents find a place to stay."

"No need to say all that. There just happens to be a vacant suite nearby." Chen Mo shook his head.

In his early years, his family invested in and bought several properties, all of which were near such hospitals and schools.

As a friend, there is not much I can do to help.

Chen Nanxing nodded and said, "Okay, I won't be polite with you. I shouldn't trouble you for too long."

"What are you talking about!" Xu Hongdou frowned.

"Hehe, what are you afraid of? Even if I don't tell you, God won't let me live two more years." Chen Nanxing said with a smile.

"As for it wanting to take me away early, I don't mind it taking a day or two."

As soon as Chen Nanxing finished speaking, the alarm of the monitoring equipment on the next bed sounded. The family member immediately pressed the bedside call button and ran out to call the doctor.

After the medical staff came in, a nurse immediately pulled the bed curtain to block Chen Nanxing's sight.

Chen Nanxing, who was chatting and laughing just now, now looked nervous. His hands couldn't help but tremble slightly. He took a deep breath and calmed himself down.

What is scary is not death, but waiting for death.

Chen Nanxing forced a smile and said, "This God doesn't listen to nice words. He starts to scare me when I say a few words to him. I'm so scared."

Xu Hongdou held Chen Nanxing's hand tightly, "It's okay, it will be okay."

"red beans."

"Ok?"

"I want to eat oden."

"it is good."

Xu Hongdou and Chen Nanxing came to the convenience store downstairs. Chen Mo gave them space and did not follow them.

Chen Nanxing ate oden and said, "I remember when I was in college, I was hungry as soon as the lights were turned off, and I had to pester you to go buy spicy hot pot with me."

"That spicy hot pot restaurant went bankrupt because of you eating their food," Xu Hongdou said with a smile.

"No, he just earned enough money to buy a house back home."

"real or fake?"

"Really? He told me so himself."

"You just like to ask questions."

"You are too busy." Chen Nanxing said.

"When I was in school, I was busy studying. After graduation, I was busy working. I just kept my head down and moved forward."

"Fortunately, Chen Mo is with you now, otherwise I would really be worried about you."

"You have to stay with me all the time, otherwise what if Chen Mo doesn't want me anymore one day?" Xu Hongdou leaned on Chen Nanxing.

"Don't worry, I will always watch over you and bless you, provided that you remember to burn paper for me." Chen Nanxing said with a smile.

"I burned more, and I didn't know if I would be charged if I looked down from above."

Xu Hongdou was already in tears, "We still have to go to the nursing home together."

"Alas, what's so good about a nursing home? You and Chen Mo have a lot of children and grandchildren, wouldn't it be better to have them around?"

Xu Hongdou leaned on Chen Nanxing's shoulder and shook her head reluctantly.

Chen Nanxing patted Xu Hongdou's head gently and looked up at the city sky outside the glass wall.

In the city full of neon lights, the starry sky can no longer be seen. Will she be able to see red beans in the sky then?

I really don't want to die.
Is there a God?
Why is it so unfair? I didn't do anything wrong.
It is difficult to be an atheist while lying on a sick bed.

When science is helpless, people can only pray devoutly for spiritual sustenance in the void.

The terminal illness ward of the hospital is like a row of reinforced concrete coffins, where patients lie helplessly, waiting for the coming of death.

Death is not something you need to rush, because no matter how lazy you are, you will not miss it.

The god of death arrived as expected and picked up a few people as if drawing lots, and Chen Nanxing was among them.

That day, Xu Hongdou, who was at work, heard the sad news that Chen Nanxing was critically ill and rushed to the hospital immediately, but still did not have time to see Chen Nanxing for the last time.

There is always a ritual when death comes, burning with fire and burying with earth, which slowly evaporates everything related to the person and gently wipes away all traces of the person's existence, as if it had never been there.

But it has been here after all, because something has been left behind, weighing heavily on the hearts of the living.
"We haven't even had the wine we agreed to drink yet. We agreed that I would arrange it." Jiang Congwen murmured in his heart.

Chen Mo's heart was also filled with bitterness, "Chen Nanxing, you are really cheating."

"How did you give up the seat of 'The Love of My Life'? You even moved the chair away."

"That place in Hongdou's heart belongs only to you."

Chen Nanxing always lived at the most beautiful age and became the lifelong love of Xu Hongdou.

Xu Hongdou accompanied Chen Nanxing for her whole life, but Chen Nanxing broke his promise.
For this reason, Xu Hongdou was "unhappy" with her life.
I heard that when a person dies, he or she will turn into a star.

Then Chen Nanxing should also turn into a star, coming out every night and secretly watching the person who misses her in his dreams.

"Red Bean, Red Bean."

Chen Nanxing's voice made Xu Hongdou slowly open her eyes, and then Xu Hongdou suddenly hugged Chen Nanxing tightly.

"Nanxing." Xu Hongdou sobbed, her face full of tear marks.

"What's wrong? Did you have a nightmare?" Chen Nanxing patted Xu Hongdou's back gently.

"Am I dreaming now?" Xu Hongdou murmured.

"No, I heard you calling my name, and when I woke up, I found that you were still crying, so I woke you up. What did you dream about?"

Xu Hongdou just hugged Chen Nanxing tightly, shook her head and said nothing, still a little overwhelmed.

I don’t realize that I am just a guest in the dream, and I feel sad or happy at the sound of a sound.

"No matter what you dreamed about, it's all fake. We still have to go for a physical examination tomorrow."

(End of this chapter)